(Friends, I wrote this post over CHRISTmas, but because I had made the choice not to blog over the break it has been sitting in my computer…but I feel compelled to share it as I feel someone needs the assurance of the encouragement it provides. And I really want to know the answer to the question I pose at the end!)
I am sitting in a hospital recovery room, eyes affixed on my sixteen year old son who is recovering from surgery.
I sit here listening to his rough breathing and search his scruffily bearded face for signs of consciousness – attempting to will his eyes to open. Searching for a glimpse of the playful personality that brings such joy to our lives.
We refer to my son as “a walking party” and he is just that, as well as an encourager and compassionate leader amongst his peers.
As we walked into the hospital at 5:30 a.m. we were greeted by a ten foot Christmas tree bedazzled with gold and red decor that revealed the celebratory nature of the season. The receptionist that greeted us and helped us complete paper work was adorned in a green sparkly shirt and a Merry CHRISTmas pin.
All of the joy and love of the CHRISTmas was keeping any real concern at bay.
Thankfully his hospitalization is not life threatening, he has a badly broken collar bone that required surgery. My “waiting” I expected to be relatively simple and anxiety free.
I was mistaken – I underestimated the tug on my heart from the events of the past. A tug that traveled from heart to my brain and began to invade my mind with tendrils of fear.
I close my eyes and am catapulted back in time to a sweet little boy, with a soft smooth face with vacant eyes lying in a tiny hospital bed. The tendrils grip tight and the “what if’s” begin to invade my mind relentlessly. (If you have read Be The Mom, you know that of which I speak.)
So many years ago with a toddler, and through many trials since then, I have learned that there is a weapon against the invader that is fear. I quietly repeat scripture in my mind and the truth of God’s love for me, and my son sweetly replace the fear…peace on earth…peace in my heart and mind.
Has there been a time in your life recently where the truth of God’s word tumbled through your heart and mind to bring you peace?